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theopaquemindpalace:

So last night I lay awake frustrated with the spinning wheels in my head, and all of a sudden a bunch of memories clicked into a narrative that made puzzle-piece sense, if not reality-based sense. And now I can’t figure out if I’m just forcibly putting old events into a silly new narrative or if the old events were all leading up to the current narrative all along.

Loki was no help - he was grinning like crazy and telling me to figure it out for myself.

for a long time, i’ve been pretty good at seeing how things fit together in my life, and the paths that have led to this or that thing — i don’t know why; it’s just how i look at things, i suppose. 

it’s… i don’t know what it is. particularly when he takes credit for things — the good things — which forces the question, were you responsible for setting up the Bad Shit, then?

he’s said he arranged for me to meet b., that b was ‘for’ me. horrifying shit had to take place for both of us for us to possibly meet each other when we did. how far back was he pulling strings?

i haven’t slept - apologies for the poor english.

That’s the thing - he’s been happy to take zero credit for any of this beyond ‘showing me the light’ so to speak. Now you’ve got me wondering how far back my strings were being pulled by the Other Deities in my life.

I try to take comfort in the fact that the shit I’ve been through has made me better as a person, rather than worse. I have damage, sure, but at every turn I’ve taken the path less dire, less destructive - and I’ve learned important things about human compassion and forgiveness (and by contrast what is in fact unforgivable IMO) that I don’t think I’d have taken as seriously without the sometimes brutal bumps in the road.

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thelokeangoddessisalive:

lokiwtf:

theopaquemindpalace:

So last night I lay awake frustrated with the spinning wheels in my head, and all of a sudden a bunch of memories clicked into a narrative that made puzzle-piece sense, if not reality-based sense. And now I can’t figure out if I’m just forcibly putting old…

Holy FUCK I’m so glad I’m not the only one He does that to…

I take so much solace in knowing I’m not alone.

More pieces fell into place last night; I did a couple of tarot readings that were dead on and made me groan because I’m always of two minds about tarot cards - sometimes I think that you can control the outcome (like, if you want a happy reading bad enough, you’re only going to get happy cards regardless of what the reality is), so I’m not sure if it’s a self-confirming bias.

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punchbuggydragon:

stranqers:

vivi-shiba:

j-aws:

ryedragon:

inritum:

reblog and make a wish!this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

OH MY FUCKING GOD, IT’S BACK ON MY DASH.
THIS SHIT WORKS OKAY, I AM DEAD SERIOUS.
The last time I saw this on my dash, I didn’t think it would happen, so jokingly I wished I could go to a fun. concert.
AND GUESS WHAT, I WENT TO A FUCKING FUN. CONCERT.
THIS SHIT WORKS, TRY IT.

yay its back.

so…I half jokingly reblogged this yesterday cos I thought it was a nice picture…and was like oh wow I only get wishes on birthdays what would I wish for?!?!?! how about gainful employment L0L… and like…I have a job now? That I never applied for? That someone just called me up and said “here, have this”? In a place I really really like?So like… h8ers gonna h8 or something

this fucking works ok

Please let me get a job and move out of this house.

punchbuggydragon:

stranqers:

vivi-shiba:

j-aws:

ryedragon:

inritum:

reblog and make a wish!


this was removed from tumbrl due to “violating one or more of Tumblr’s Community Guidelines”, but since my wish came true the first time, I’m putting it back. :)

OH MY FUCKING GOD, IT’S BACK ON MY DASH.

THIS SHIT WORKS OKAY, I AM DEAD SERIOUS.

The last time I saw this on my dash, I didn’t think it would happen, so jokingly I wished I could go to a fun. concert.

AND GUESS WHAT, I WENT TO A FUCKING FUN. CONCERT.

THIS SHIT WORKS, TRY IT.

yay its back.

so…
I half jokingly reblogged this yesterday cos I thought it was a nice picture…
and was like oh wow I only get wishes on birthdays what would I wish for?!?!?! how about gainful employment L0L

… and like…

I have a job now? That I never applied for? That someone just called me up and said “here, have this”? In a place I really really like?

So like… h8ers gonna h8 or something

this fucking works ok

Please let me get a job and move out of this house.

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solar-citrus:

I’ve received a lot of letters from artists asking to check out their artwork and their blog, and I’ve noticed that a lot of them openly write unhealthy amounts of negative comments about their artwork, it was super depressing, honestly.  :(
Confidence plays a very very important role as an artist, it’s what helps us learn and grow without the constant feeling of doubt and jealousy!  You are a unique individual who must go down your own unique path, and as scary as it sounds, you can’t rely on others to hold your hand all the way through.  You are the only one who can get yourself to where you need to go, and beating up your artwork is not the way!  Trust yourself and your abilities to make a change, and you can do anything!!

Love your art, love yourself!

Good advice.

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So last night I lay awake frustrated with the spinning wheels in my head, and all of a sudden a bunch of memories clicked into a narrative that made puzzle-piece sense, if not reality-based sense. And now I can’t figure out if I’m just forcibly putting old events into a silly new narrative or if the old events were all leading up to the current narrative all along.

Loki was no help - he was grinning like crazy and telling me to figure it out for myself.

Filed under Loki* give me a sign please because I'm so totally confused like one I can't miss or explain away because I'm very good at being Very Rational and this stuff doesn't really fall under that